Two to Kiss, Two to Love: Jealousy
Did you just find out you're having twins?!!? I’m EXTREMELY excited for you. However, if you would have told me you were having twins three years ago, I would have been excited, sure, but also entirely jealous.
When anyone would announce they were having twins, I would hope that, one day, I would be able to say the same. As excited as I would be for them, twinges of jealousy would run through my veins. It had been a life-long dream of mine; have a boy, then identical twin girls. Because, you know, you can choose those things. ha. I always hoped I would be able to say that I had twins, and share twin experiences with other twin moms. But I knew it would not be so, since no one in my family has twins, so why would I?
I specifically remember when my sister-in-law announced she was having twins. That was MY family! I was so happy for her, but also kept thinking, “Noooo! I wanted twins! But now my odds have gone way down! You don’t have two sets of twins in one family.”
For about two years, I took care of a friend's twins. I claimed that as my only twin experience, and felt blessed to have that experience. They were the cutest girls, and I just loved them. But, of course, I still longed for my very own.
I also knew some twin mamas who felt overwhelmed with their twins, or would talk about how hard they were. I'd sit jealously to the side, and just wish that I could fill their shoes for them! Please, oh please, let me be a mom of twins! Or if someone ever said they would never want twins, I would think, "You don’t want twins?! TWINS ARE THE BEST! GIVE THEM TO ME!"
And, somehow, someway, in this crazy world, I was given the opportunity to raise them. I have my own twins. Cue all the happy dances in the world. So, we’ll just chalk that up to being the one who has twins on MY side of the family instead of my husband's side. No one has them on my side yet, so my chances would have been higher, right?
It’s hard to remember that I ever felt that way though. But I did. And it’s so crazy to think about how that has changed. It seems insane to think that I actually had twins. It just seemed so unlikely. But maybe I've wanted them forever because it was just meant to be.
And forever, I will always feel blessed to have them. Doesn't it feel awesome to get something you've always wanted? Wouldn't it be great if things always worked out that way? Oh, how blessed I feel, and I will never take those two for granted.
All babies are miracles, and when you get two of them at once, it's just double the blessings, right? And I AM so excited for you, and not one bit jealous (okay, maybe a little bit because of all of the cute twin newborn pictures you're going to take because those are the CUTEST). If you need someone to be excited for you, or maybe calm you down a bit, I'm right here! :) Now go share all the excitement with everybody else! You're having TWO babies!! HURRAY!!!
*The “Two to Kiss, Two to Love” series is a helpful series for all you twin mamas out there! If you have a twin related question, comment below, and I’ll answer it for you!*